I’m No Longer Apologizing For Being Me

I used to apologize for everything. Sorry Im so crazy, sorry I said that, sorry Im so insecure, sorry I didnt come out last night, and so on. Now, apologies are necessary if you did something wrong. However , none of what I simply wrote was wrong. I apologized for being me for a long time. Well, I devoted that up, just like a bad habit.

First off, Im a girl and I definitely can be crazy. Guess what? If you dont attain me crazy, I wont be crazy. Its that simple. If Im not dating a son who lies and is shady, you wont ensure my crazy side. If you arent rude or disrespectful to me, I wont make you feel like you’re two inches tall and remind you why you shouldnt mess with my 52 stature. Girls are called crazy, because in situations where we dont know the outcome or we have a bad feeling, our nervousnes and research abilities come into play. Dont dislike us because were resourceful or because you have something to hide.

Im not going to apologize for acting out in a situation Ive been placed in.

I will never apologize for something I have said if I truly meant it. Am I sorry it hurt your impressions? Yes, of course. However, you came to me because you knew I was going to give you 100 percent of the truth. If you didnt want the truth, you would have gone to someone who sugar coats things and I dont has been able to do that. I wont apologize for being honest, ever. Besides, I couldnt lie or sugarcoat things even if I tried. If you know me, you know my face says it all and I wont apologize for it. I am not rude or disrespectful by any means, but I have an sentiment and Im damn sure I dont care if you hear it.

I am sorry that I am insecure, but that sorry isnt for anyone else to hear.

Its for me and my body. I apologize to my body for not dedicating it the care it deserves as a strong and beautiful piece of this world. I am sorry for treating it poorly, time and time again and hating it every day. I am truly sorry that I have wasted 24 years not loving it and I will do my best to work on that every day. Thats between me and myself. You better believe youll never build me sorry for showing you my vulnerable side.

Ive had too many people in my life that have tried to use my insecurity as power and that low phase in my life is long gone, so dont try me.

I have come to terms with the fact that I am 24 -years-old and I should still act young. My best friend and I should expend a Thursday evening, drinking brew or sangria until 1am. I should be out dancing all night on a Saturday. However, if its a Friday and youre dying to go out and Im in sweats, my face is rinsed and Im 4 episodes of One Tree Hill deep on Netflix, with a glass of wine in my hand, chances are Im not moving. I wont apologize for needing a night to myself, ever. I can be loud, social and the life of the dance floor when Im feeling it…but sometimes I want to be antisocial and crawl into the walls of my room and never come out. Ill never apologize for needing to recharge , no matter how lame it is.

I will never apologize or feel like I cant voice my feelings about something. I feel very strongly about LGBT rights, human rights and my voice as a woman. If you dont agree with me, thats your opinion. However, I will never shade what I have to say, so that I dont feel like an outcast or because Im afraid. I will stand up for what I believe in until the working day I die and no one can take that from me. So, do me a favor and dont to continue efforts to induce me sound stupid over a topic Im passionate about; it wont work.

We spend a lot of our time trying to please others and wanting to be liked by all things.

Were always trying to be the next fitness story, the girl with the latest hair or attire style, the one listening to the new music or following the trend of whatever bracelet takes the place of the Alex and Ani.

I hate working out, I love my black hair and the fact that I can wear a Knicks jersey or a dress and feel good. I will blast a Wu-tang album, make “youre feeling” intimidated as I rap Nicki Minaj or jam out to my 60 s records and not devote a second thought about what Taylor Swift is doing. Maybe Im not the prettiest and Im not invested in the trend of becoming a fit girl for instagram, but I have who I need in my life and they love me for who I am; funny, sarcastic, truthful and unapologetically me.

I say, be yourself. People dont have to like you, but you have to like yourself .

Dont be afraid that society is going to call you a bitch for acting this style or that your stance as an independent woman is a cliche. Be your damn ego and be proud of it.

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